The morning after…
In my life I have become very used to losing… It just makes winning feel that much better.
I never thought I was going to be that girl, you know the one who lets her heart be broken as if it were for sport…
I took him in as deep as my breath would allow.. Tangled my arms with his, my smile pressed to his. Moments like this is why we have the word perfection.
I closed my eyes and just as quickly opened them to say goodbye. He spoke sweetly as he carried out the door.
My smile remained well after I drifted into a deep state of peace.
The next morning there was an uneasy feeling, one I knew far too well… I waited all day.. nothing happened…
That evening I had an empty feeling, I prayed for sleep as a distraction. It happened. My eyes fell heavy… I woke quickly after I felt my phone at the edge of the bed furiously buzzing. I took a deep breath when I saw his name… Still feeling uneasy..
I read the first sentence ” Sera, I don’t know an easy way to say this “.
An sharp headache came in that instance… It was over before it even really began…
I kept running through the words he’d written trying to be angry… Trying to put myself in a higher standing then how I felt…
He had meant so much to me, in that moment all I felt was heartache for him…
I read over his words again trying to form a reply in which would leave him relieved. I don’t believe it was possible…
I quickly shut my eyes fighting the tears, forcing myself to lay still and not feel. ( I failed greatly at this).
I went through all the phases of grieving, sorrow, angry, denial, everything except closure.
All I can do is hope that he is well… that his heart is sound…
I want nothing but the world for him… one in which I would’ve given…
-Sera
I see you there, don’t know where you come from
Unaware of a stare from someone
Don’t appear to care that I saw you and I want you
What’s your name ‘cause I have to know it
You let me in and begin to show it
We’re terrified ‘cause we’re heading straight for it, might get it
You been the song playing on the background
All along but you’re turning up now
And everyone is rising to meet you, to greet you
Turn around and you’re walking toward me
I’m breaking down and you’re breathing slowly
You say the word and I will be your man, your man
Say when and my own two hands
Will comfort you tonight, tonight
Say when and my own two arms
Will carry you tonight, tonight
We’re coming close and then even closer
We bring it in but we go no further
We’re separate, two ghosts in one mirror, no nearer
Later on if it turns to chaos
Hurricane coming all around us
See the crack, pull it back from the window, you stay low
Say when and my own two hands
Will comfort you tonight, tonight
Say when and my own two arms
Will carry you tonight, tonight
Come across you lost and broken
You’re coming to but you’re slow in waking
You start to shake, you still haven’t spoken, what happened
They’re coming back and you just don’t know when
You want to cry but there’s nothing coming
They’re gonna push until you give in or say when
Now we’re here, and it turns to chaos
Hurricane, coming all around us
Double crack throws you back from the window, you stay low
It all began with a man & country
Every plan turns another century
Around again, another nation fallen
Maybe God can be on both sides
Of the gun, never understood why
Some of us never get it so good, so good
Some of this was here before us
All of this will go after us
It never stops until we give in
Say when and my own two hands
Will comfort you tonight, tonight
Say when and my own two arms
Will carry you tonight, tonight
Say when and my own two hands
Will comfort you tonight, tonight
Watching you watching me,
A fine way to fall asleep.
The neighbors fight,
As we both rest our eyes.
Hands in the fallen snow;
Numb to the winter cold,
But we don’t mind,
‘Cause we’ll get warm inside.
You’re the reason I come home.
You’re the reason I come home, my love.
You’re the reason that when everything I know falls apart…
Well, you’re the reason I come home.
Paper doll silhouettes,
Fingertips on window glass;
The street’s asleep,
So I breathe you in deep.
The tragedies of chemistry,
People dream of what you and me
Have found…
Effortlessly.
You’re the reason I come home.
You’re the reason I come home, my love.
You’re the reason that when everything I know falls apart…
Well, you’re the reason I come home.
And for a long time, I remember,
Saying prayers for something perfect,
Saying prayers for someone kind.
It’s in my head,
We’re spinning circles down the avenues instead.
You’re the reason I come home.
You’re the reason
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